| shit. so. my sister found my LJ. so now i have to be uber careful about what the fuck i post, my daddy finds out something he disapproves of and i'm in TROUUUUBLE. uh oh... hehe...
um... *blinks* shit. new hair.
i had a really long post i wrote last night but my internet was down so it didn't load. um.... guess you'll have to deal with this. it's three twenty in the morning and i'm kinda tired. fucking insomnia. |
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| it's two in the morning and i'm completely bored. i can't sleep, so i'm just sitting here.. listening to my bad brains CD over and over...
i'm so fucking happy i found it. tomorrow i'm cutting my hair and bleaching/dyeing it.
i think i'm gonna bleach the whole thing, and then just dye bits of it. yeh?
i haven't been blonde since i was like... little. i duno. i'm not sure what the fuck i'm gonna do.
except go lay down on my bed, take my batteries out of my alarm clock and put them into my cd player...
and listen to bad brains a couple more times until my parents came home.
yeah. tonight they went clubbing. i got to paint my dad's nails black and let him borrow my eyeliner.
haha fucking a man. him, in a goth club? wtf??? my mom, whatever. my dad....HUH??? |
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| i accidentally took maddy's glasses. which she took off a manequin in venice. turns out they're seventy dollar glasses from some really fancy boutique shit thing.
oh the things we do when drunk.
god damn. part of me actually wishes i had been there that day. the other half of me is glad that i just heard about it.
today was great though. |
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| i never knew i could hurt so much. i never knew he could hurt me so badly. i didn't... i didn't think it was possible, that he ever would.
but he did. and as much as i love him... i dont trust him. i gave him everything and he broke my heart.
so now... we start over. i do love him. but i can't love him. so we try again. see if this time i can keep my foot out of my mouth and see if he can hold my heart without smashing it to a thousand pieces.
we try again. |
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